Your Favorite Childhood Toys

This is super simple!! I have had the same "favorite" toys for who knows how long.  Zipper & Crystal.  Zipper ( the monkey) I have has since I was super young and Crystal was given to me when we were taken to a women's shelter.  I was young enough that I don't remember being there I just remember my love for this stuffed rabbit. I still have these faithful friends because I'm a sentimental hoot and hold on to silly things.

 When I was a kid we had a secret word and if my parents weren't around and someone told me they were sent for me I wasn't suppose to go with them unless they knew the secret word.  The word was Zipper.  I remember how I liked to chew on his banana. lol  Poor thing has a hole in it now.  My kids enjoy playing with him even though he's kinda falling apart. (that makes me nervous!)

  A weird but memorable story of Crystal is how I almost lost her.  My dad is bi-polar and for the majority (all) of my childhood it wasn't under control.  One afternoon, I was about 5, I upset him somehow.  He was yelling at me and then he went and got Crystal and Zipper and told me he was going to throw them away.  He left the apartment and I watched sobbing  from a window as he took my two favorite things in the whole world to the dumpster.  I vowed right then that I hated him and I could never forgive him for what he was doing.  Pretty strong feelings for a kid my age but this was serious.  I don't know where I went - I remember I use to lock myself in the hall closet when I was mad so maybe that's what I did but he returned and I didn't find out until much later that he didn't throw them away.  I of course have forgiven him but it still hurts the little girl in me to think back on.

  I cherish these stuffed animals.  They were everything to me and are still pretty important.  I see that Stevie has these stuffed Alligators and they are so special to him.  That really warms my heart because I can relate to that.  I go through a lot to protect those silly things and I hope he someday looks back and loves them the way I do mine.  ^_^

Your Zodiac Sign And If It Fits Your Personality

"Who is fond of life fun and pleasure?
Who oscillates and changes often??
Who loves attention without any limit???

                           It is the Gemini."

  

This is a fun one!!  I believe I fit the bill for a Gemini to a T pretty much.  

Positive Traits

Main positive traits: Versatile, adaptable, inquisitive, intelligent, quick to learn.  

"Geminis are optimistic people. All things are fresh and fascinating for the them. They possess great enthusiasm. Routine is boring for them. Restless, with an active imagination and a keen intellect, life must be lived to the fullest for the Geminis. Gemini analyzes everything. Gemini's are usually affectionate, courteous, kind, generous, thoughtful and superficial."

I think this is pretty much true but I would hate to call myself superficial...  

I do think I over analyze everything even though 99.9% of the time I never actually talk about it.

Negative Traits

Main negative traits: Superficial, short attention span, restless, nervous, nervous, lacks concentration, conniving. 

"On the turn of a moment, Gemini can become cynical, biting, moody and quickly angered. Inseparable as two sides of a coin, those born in this sign can be dazzling and irresistible or inconstant and irrational.Once something is familiar , the interest wears thin and the need for new worlds to investigate grows strong again. Geminis are fickle. This is not intentional, it is their basic nature to be so. "

It's very true that I get bored easily and that I tend to have a lot of nervous energy.  

If you know me, you know I don't concentrate on any given thing long.  

Gemini and Independence: 

"Gemini are extremely independent. They will not be pinned down by anyone or any rules. They need to experience the world on their own. Change and freedom are extremely important to Gemini, they will never let anyone dictate them, they are extremely independent and freedom is essential to their mental well being."

I hate feeling like someone is trying to control or smoother me.  I need space like you need air.

 

"Instead of looking deep into a person's real qualities, Gemini will judge a person by the way they treat them. This can lead Gemini to have wrong impressions of people and can cause problems ion relationships. Gemini's can have feeling of discouragement and moodiness although they never allow this to be seen by anyone but their closest friends or family. Gemini usually want everyone to think that they are always happy and doing wonderfully and stress never affects them"

 

You love to be around me because I am always happy. :-) 

My own mother said to me just the other day "I don't know if you're really ok or just keeping it all in." 

 

Gemini in a Nutshell:

"Gemini people are many sided, quick both in the mind and physically. They are brimming with energy and vitality, they are clever with words. They are intelligent and very adaptable to every situation and every person. Gemini are curious and always want to know what's going on in the world around them. They are not one to sit back and watch the world go by, they want to be involved. This can sometimes make Gemini nosy, they do not mind their own business! This is because they really enjoy communicating, more so then most other astrology signs, they are the ultimate social butterfly. Gemini can talk and talk, but they have interesting things to say, their talk is not mindless babble. They have interesting opinions and thoughts on things and are not afraid to speak their mind. They are always in the know and are the one to see for the latest juicy gossip. Lacking perseverance, Gemini easily goes off topic to explore another thought or idea. Gemini are superficial, they will form opinions on matter without diving into them and exploring them fully. This can lead them into thinking they know everything, which they usually do but their mind is too busy to be concerned with fine details. Routine and boredom are Gemini's biggest fears. Gemini would rather be naive then know the depressing truth, they do not want anything putting a damper on their freedom or positive energy."

It's all pretty much true. 

Gemini Strength Keywords:

- Energetic
- Clever
- Imaginative
- Witty
- Adaptable

Gemini Weakness Keywords:

- Superficial
- Impulsive
- Restless
- Devious
- Indecisive

I think all those things both positive and negative fit.  They are what make me so loveable and face it - I am pretty loveable.  ^_^

 

Your favorite comfort foods

  Remember how I grew up in Texas??  Well it really will show in my favorite comfort foods.  I'm kinda different because when I'm stressed out or sad I barely eat.  I can go a whole day without eating and then it finally hits me that I am really starving.  I'm sure deep down that is some sort of  psychological way of making myself feel like I'm in control. lol  ANYWAY!



 My Favorite Comfort foods are things that are fried.  There are a few foods that I can eat so much of that when I'm done I feel "jolly".   It actually makes me giggle and then it hurts to giggle because I am so full so I laugh even harder!!  One of those things and my most favorite of those things is fried catfish.

  The second of these favorite comfort foods is Chicken Fried Steak, mashed potatoes and fried Okra.

  The last thing isn't really a food but it's still kinda in there with these two things and that would be sweet tea.  I LOVE real sweet tea.  I had a good friend when I was a teenager, Lauren, we spent all of our time together and her memaw made the very best sweet tea in the whole entire world.  I will never forget that.

  These few things always make me feel good.  I always feel so satisfied after eating this.  I miss Texas so bad most days and I really miss the food.  This is like a taste of home and all the things I'm missing.  :-)

Your views on Religion

  Views on religion always end up as a fun subject. 
Mine are pretty simple I think.  I believe in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit but I do not believe in the Holy trinity.   I don't go to church and for the most part I don't even believe in church.  I pray and I try to be a good person.  I treat others the way I would want to be treated for the most part.  I don't think I will go to "hell", which I also don't really believe in the way most ppl do. 

  I was raised pentecostal, I have been baptized in the Baptist church and the Mormon church. For the longest time growin up I was the only one in my family who even went to Church.  I am very spiritual. 


  So I guess my view is - Don't be a Bible beater, treat people decent ALL the time, just try to be a good person and if there is a God that will be acknowledged.

Your Top 5 Pet Peeves

  For most people this is probably a really easy one but not so much for me.  I have pretty extreme likes or dislikes.  I think Crystal said it's the most Extreme of anyone she's ever met. :-p  I've been giving this some thought to try to pick 5, the worst 5 I could think of.  These are in no particular order though. 

1.  People who drag their feet.  It takes a minimal amount of effort to pick your damn feet up. 

2.  Smacking.  I can't stand when people chew gum or food and just smack smack smack.  What is even more annoying then the smacking is a closed mouth smack.  It is possible.  Ugh I'm getting annoyed just thinking about it. I'm also going to include when someone is on the phone with me and eats at the same time.  WTF

3. When I go out with someone and they continually use their phone even though we are talking.  Really, if it's that important ask me to wait and make a phone call.  My time is just as important as yours so put the phone down.

4.  Being late.  I hate to be late.  It could very well be more of an anxiety issue with me. 

5.  Complainers.  I know we all have moments that suck but for some people it is ALL the time.  Do us all a favor and medicate yourself  - please and thank you. 

Where you'd like to be in 10 years

  Wow, I haven't really given it a whole lot of thought. I would like to be alive & healthy and have my children alive and well.  In 10 years I would like to be re-married, have a beach house, have a job that I really enjoy and be the awesome busy mom going to all my kids sporting events. 

  It's kinda hard to picture really.  I will be almost 40, a 14yr old, 13 yr old and a 12 yr old - Woah. I think I forget they're REALLY going to grow up sometimes. 

  Really I'd like to have bigger boobs and a flatter tummy too! LOL  I think within 10 years I could afford to make that happen.  =)

Day 1: Your current relationship

  This is a FANTASTIC way to start a 30 day challenge!! NOT!

My Current status is in the process of a divorce.  It's neither a good or a bad thing.  It is what it is and I'm fine with that.  :-)  I'm staying true to me and figuring the rest will fall into place.
In general I'm pretty private about this stuff anyway.  Sorry reader!
This day sucks for a starter



**Because Steffen got onto me about not describing how I feel about my current status I thought I would go into a little more detail**  
  Sometimes I feel like I failed because I couldn't make things work but then I realize I am only half of the problem.  Most days I am positive and look forward to the future but when it comes to Love and relationships I find myself having a very negative / realistic point of view and really have a hard time trusting people. I realize I have to allow myself to be vulnerable and that's very hard for me.  I am very closed off and controlled in most ways.  Really, I hate talking about my feelings so I don't think there is a lot more I can say about this.  

New Blog

So here is my new blog and I'm gonna do the 30 Challenge with Crystal and Colleen.